[Self-Writing] TERGANTI | Being Replaced

Terganti.


Mencintai dan dicintai, sama seperti merasakan nikmatnya cahaya mentari dari kedua sisi. 
Namun apa yang terjadi kala satu sisi mulai meredup dan enggan menyinari sementara sisi yang lain tetap bertahan? 
Sisi yang satu merasa bosan, ingin menyinari yang lain yang belum pernah ia coba.  
Sisi yang lain, tergantikan, tak tersinari, sementara ia masih ingin bersama sisi yang satunya. 
Tergantikan, perasaan yang paling menyakitkan, melihat tempatmu sebelumnya diduduki orang lain sementara kau masih ingin duduk diatasnya. 
Lebih sakit lagi, berusaha mempertahankan orang yang ingin meninggalkan. 
Tak ada lagi sayang, hilang sudah kepercayaan, lalu apa lagi yang harus dipertahankan? 
Santai, nikmati sakitmu. 
Sakit ialah pertanda bahwa kau hidup dan tumbuh. 
Akan ada hati dimana kau takkan pernah terganti. 
Bukan saat ini, namun di esok hari, itu pasti.



Surabaya. Pulang Kerja. 19/08/2014

[Self-Writing] 23 Tahun; Masih Bernafas; Masih Bekerja; Masih Sendiri

Sulit dipercaya, sebuah makhluk masih dikaruniai kesempatan untuk tak henti-hentinya menghirup rasa oksigen selama 23 tahun. Bila dalam 1 menit saja manusia harus meraup begitu banyak rasa hampanya oksigen, bayangkan, berapa menit dalam 23 tahun itu yang dihabiskan untuk bernafas. Tidak hanya sekedar bernafas, tapi hidup.

Hidup. Mati. Dua kutub yang berlawanan. Sama halnya dengan Cinta dan Benci. Keduanya bisa tumbuh dihatimu, subur, menjalar, beranak-pinak, dan sulit dibasmi. Mana yang lebih subur bahkan tak bisa ditentukan oleh si empunya hati. Hati bisa membenci begitu dalam bahkan saat dicintai. Cinta bisa menciptakan kebencian yang begitu kejam kala saraf di hati terpacu.

Jatuh. Cinta.
Pada stagnan itulah dimana tubuhmu tidak mengandalkan otak dalam bertindak dan mencerna. Hatimu menjadi penguasa, dimana emosi dan perasaan menjadi alasan nomor satumu dalam mengambil keputusan.

Tak ingin jatuh. Berusaha Bertahan. Menolak tumbuh.
It's all bullshit in the eye of cupid. Sekuat apapun pertahananmu, takkan pernah kau bisa mengingkari nikmatnya. Sekalipun tau di depanmu pasti ada halang rintang dan sakit perih, kesempatan untuk jatuh dalam nikmatnya begitu menggoda. Otakmu berkata jangan, namun hatimu mempersilakan, memberi kesempatan menyesap buih cinta yang katanya, mempesona.

[Lyric] Like a Latte (라떼처럼) - Yoon Geon [Romanization | Indo Translation]


Like a Latte (라떼처럼) by Yoon Geon 
[Romanization | Indo Translation]



I know this song from the korean drama Emergency Couple, on the final episode. sounds very lovely, fit the moment very well :)


Let me be the one
널 사랑하니까
neol saranghanikka
Karena aku mencintaimu.

니가 감기 걸렸을때도
niga gamgi geollyeosseulttaedo
Juga waktu kamu kena pilek.

내게 키스해줄래
naege kiseuhaejullae
Maukah menciumku?

장난스럽게
jangnanseureobge
Dengan bercanda.

이 순간이 너무 짧아
i sun’gani neomu jjalba
Momen ini terlalu pendek.

너와 함께면
neowa hamkkemyeon
Jika bersamamu.

Let me be the one

널 사랑하니까
neol saranghanikka
Karena aku mencintaimu.

작은 일에 투정부려도
jageun ire tujeongburyeodo
Meski kamu mengomel karena hal-hal sepele.

너를 감싸안을래
neoreul gamssa’aneullae
Aku ingin memeluk dan menyelubungimu.

라떼향기처럼
lattehyanggicheoreom
Seperti aroma latte.

하루 해가 너무 짧아
haru haega neomu jjalba
Matahari dalam 1 hari terlalu singkat.

너와 함께면
neowa hamkkemyeon
Jika bersamamu.

If you stay forever
I have a smile

오직 너만을 언제까지나
ojig neomaneul eonjekkajina
Hanya kamu sampai kapan pun

And If you stay forever

나와 함께
nawa hamkke
Bersamaku.

You stay forever more

언제까지나
eonjekkajina
Sampai kapan pun.

영원토록 네곁에
yeong-wontorog negyeote
Selamanya di sampingmu.

you
you stay
please stay stay

Let me be the one

널 사랑하니까
neol saranghanikka
Karena aku mencintaimu.

니가 감기 걸렸을때도
niga gamgi geollyeosseulttaedo
Juga waktu kamu kena pilek.

내게 키스해줄래
naege kiseuhaejullae
Maukah menciumku?

장난스럽게
jangnanseureobge
Dengan bercanda.

이 순간이 너무 짧아
i sun’gani neomu jjalba
Momen ini terlalu pendek.

너와 함께면
neowa hamkkemyeon
Jika bersamamu.

Let me be the one

널 사랑하니까
neol saranghanikka
Karena aku mencintaimu.

작은 일에 투정부려도
jageun ire tujeongburyeodo
Meski kamu mengomel karena hal-hal sepele.

너를 감싸안을래
neoreul gamssa’aneullae
Aku ingin memeluk dan menyelubungimu.

라떼향기처럼
lattehyanggicheoreom
Seperti aroma latte.

하루 해가 너무 짧아
haru haega neomu jjalba
Matahari dalam 1 hari terlalu singkat.

너와 함께면
neowa hamkkemyeon
Jika bersamamu.

If you stay forever
I have a smile

오직 너만을 언제까지나
ojig neomaneul eonjekkajina
Hanya kamu sampai kapan pun

And If you stay forever

나와 함께
nawa hamkke
Bersamaku.

You stay forever more

언제까지나
eonjekkajina
Sampai kapan pun.

영원토록 네곁에
yeong-wontorog negyeote
Selamanya di sampingmu.

You

You stay

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CREDIT : Korean Vitamin

[Quotes] That Winter The Wind Blows Quotes


That Winter The Wind Blows

Can't I just live half-heartedly like this? - Oh Soo | Eps 01
Everyone wants to find a reason to live - Oh Soo | Eps 02

Even if I don't have a reason to live, I live because my eyes open in the morning. 
Because I still breathe. Why? - Oh Soo | Eps 02

Even if you want to die, living while you are alive is life. 
Be careful what you speak. - Oh Soo | Eps 03

I'm a man who want to live, met a woman who want to die. - Oh Soo | Eps 03
What are you looking at? Are you staring at me because you don't know that i like you? - Jin Sung
If i can choose when to die, the I thought that was a perfect moment. - Oh Young


Young is inoperable. She barely made up her mind to live. Now I have to tell her to give up. Young barely made up her mind to get the scary surgery for me. - Oh Soo | Eps 12

Even the thugs play by the rules. That's why I don't like you. You don't play by society rules. You don't play by thug rules. I don't like anyone or anything that doesn't play by the rules. - Mo Chul | Eps 12

I can see just enough to see that you're very good-looking. - Oh Young | Final Eps

[Photographs] Paralayang!

Location: Paralayang, Batu
Wardrobe + Make Up: DIY
Lighting: By God
Taken: By Nenezsaurus

just click to enlarge~






Location: Candi Singhasari
Wardrobe + Make Up: DIY
Lighting: By God
Taken: By Nenezsaurus

just click to enlarge ~






Location: Candi Badut
Wardrobe + Make Up: DIY
Lighting: By God
Taken: By Nenezsaurus



[Wallpaper] BIGBANG - G Market 2012

[Wallpaper] Bigbang - G Market 2012


Long time no post :(
Just click to enlarge for max size

Bigbang | G Market 2012

Bigbang | G Market 2012

Bigbang | G Market 2012

Bigbang | G Market 2012

Bigbang | G Market 2012

Bigbang | G Market X Fila 2012

Bigbang | G Market X Fila 2012

credit: teambigbang.com ^^

[Magazine] TOP High Cut Vol.44 HQ Photos


Eww, that gorgeous charism and those smoky eyes 0_0
I wonder who will gonna be your wife in the future, TOP ssi?
I bet she's lucky enough to stare at ur eyes every single day of her life, kekeke








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[Magazine] TOP Harper's Bazaar & Vogue Scans

Gorgeous and Manly ~













[Lyric] ONE DAY by Lee Jun Ki Romanization + English Translation


ONE DAY by Lee Jun Ki 
Romanization + English Translation



ROMANIZATION

Nun tteumyeon sarajil geot gata
Kkaeji anhneun kkum igil barae
Jogeum man deo son nae milmyeon
Daheul geot gatasseo

Hae jugopeun
Mal mot dahan geu mal
Deullyeo jugo sipeun i nae mameul

Haruman nal gidarimyeon andoeyo
Haruman nae gyeote omyeon andoeyo
Haruman nal pume angoseo
Ulda jichil mankeum man
Neol bonael mankeum man haruman

Du soneul ppeodeu myeon geu mankeum
Neon meoreojyeo ga
Maeil nan yeogiseo neol bara bodaga goin
Nunmureul mollae heullyeo naenda

Haruman nal gidarimyeon andoeyo
Haruman nae gyeote omyeon andoeyo
Haruman nal pume angoseo
Ulda jichil mankeum man
Neol bonael mankeum man haruman

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ENGLISH TRANSLATION


If I open my eyes, it seems like it’ll go away
I hope it’s a dream I won’t wake from
Because it feels like we can touch
If I hold out my hand a bit more
Words I want to tell you,
words that weren’t finished
I want to let you listen to my heart

Can’t you wait one day for me?
Can’t you come to me for just one day?
Can’t you come to my arms for one day?
Just until I can cry and get exhausted
Just until I can let you go – just one day

When I hold out my two hands,
you grow farther away
Every day, I look at you from here
And I secretly shed my welled up tears

Can’t you wait one day for me?
Can’t you come to me for just one day?
Can’t you come to my arms for one day?
Just until I can cry and get exhausted
Just until I can let you go – just one day



[Photoshoot] BIGBANG w/ The North Face

BIGBANG w/ The North Face
click for larger image ^^

Where is Daesung ssi?
Maybe he's not there because the accident, so sad :(

Having fun together, eh?
^^v

Well, I really like Jiyong hair like that ^^
Seungri ssi so cute ~



So gorgeous 0_0
This man is awesome!
Ah oppa, I wish I can meet you in person ..
Just once, may Allah give me the chance for me to meet you ^^
Aminnnnn


Even in the dark, he's still so stunning ~
0_0



another photoshoot:












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